boy
crescent sand moon
pink sky
shadow of a whale
oceans edge

i remember reading
somewhere
that dance was like
writing in the sand
certainly seems so to me

*orezemit
this is the viva color polaroid film
that you sent me
the last time i lived in monterey
years ago now
just got to shooting it
i had been hesitant to
and i have no real solid reason
to why
i like questions
more than i like answers any way
"little of you"
little is much!
oh so much!
i am good at digging holes
and very good at climbing out
and rather enjoy it
it is climbing down from tops
of trees and cliffs
which i struggle with
but i do it still
climb
up then down
without much thinking
so don't think too much about it
trust your hands and feet
to get you there
and always
always
ask for help
not a whisper of help
an out on a street
yelling for help
i am getting better at this
though my instincts are
to take it all on
on my own

just a little story
not sure what it has to do with it
except for simple gestures
simple gestures of help
and care

i was at a music recital with rainer
an old old man was sitting
just behind us
he was there with a woman
whom i thought to be his daughter
but soon learned
in listening to their conversation
she was a volunteer and friend
whom works with the elderly
taking them out and about
and what not
well
at the end of the recital
getting up
getting coats
he offered to help me put mine on
i said
no thank you
he insisted
gently
and again i said
no thank you i can do it
and the woman said
you mustn't say no
he is an old fashioned gentleman
and he see's it as his duty
his privilege
and then i said
yes of course
and i don't know if someone ever
since i was a little little nikki
helped me put on my coat
and it was a warm feeling
a simple loving gesture
from a stranger
i realized
that when someone wants to help
help me anyways
i nearly have always turned down the help
even when i wanted and or needed it
getting better at accepting help
and even asking for it
because i know how good it feels to help others myself
it is certainly not a weakness

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